What REALLY hurt most was the Worry and Stress I’d feel before that. And in the end… that was all coming from ME.
I can promise you that if you can take a step back, and question those fears and doubts in your mind, and do so the next 10 times you go through that, your mind automatically deals with those fears. It dismisses them. I didn't realise it when I first started doing this, but neuroplasticity will rewire your mind to make this happen.
It's tough to do so at the start. It's impossible to do it right away. But if you can get your mind on your side, dealing with cancer, and the trauma it leaves behind, almost becomes easy. .
What you can control is how you let that control your life.
Trust me, you do.
And it makes that anxious time that much better.
Amen, random person!