But it really really does, on an emotional level. Plus, I'm on that chemo drug now. I can't really afford to lose weight right now... And my protein intake is severely diminished. That may well make my cramping worse, and inflate the issue that is my gradual muscle wasting.
Only time will tell if it was worth it.
But I mean though I like to get frustrated, at him, at my parents who continually push me to try these things, and at the world in general (I mean, oh my god, do you HAVE to have a KFC ad run every time someone scores in a game of cricket???), in the end, I know this is the right choice.
As I said, it can definitely help my heart. Who knows, it may well help my condition. And the past few years, I knew that it was morally wrong to eat meat too (on multiple levels - it's bad for the environment too). I know I'm gonna eat it less even after this diet is over. Except for fish. Those things are ugly (I am luckily still allowed that in this prescribed diet - so it's not ENTIRELY vegan).
But still, when I see this pop up on my Facebook news feed, every single day; somehow, just when I'm hungriest too (this Facebook ad targeting is getting really creepy now)... I die a little inside.